Blessings

I cannot believe that I am already 35 weeks!  This pregnancy has gone by so fast.  I remember in the beginning wishing I would be closer to my due date and now I really don't know if I am ready for another baby in a month.  I AM so excited to see little Cameron and have him join our family but I am really nervous to be having three.  I think deep down I know that I will be fine even though there will be days that will be hard.  I guess I was thinking about it so much that Heavnely Father decided I needed a distraction.  I took Adallyn in for her 18 month check up two weeks ago and the cute little thing is only 18.6 pounds. (which by the way is bigger than Kaydence was at this age)  I always knew that we would have little kids because me and vinny aren't really giants but the doctor seemed to be concerned.  She is now on a high fat diet. (Everything with extra butter and lots of icecream)  He also listened to her heart and then told me he heard that she had a heart murmur.  Usually he isn't that concerned with it but because her weight was so small he said that I needed to see a cardiologist.  If she did have this heart murmur then she would have to have surgery.  He also took her blood pressure in both arms.  One side was something like 108 and the other side was 88 and he said that was usually a sign of this particular heart murmur.  He made it seem like she was for sure going to need surgery.  She also got her shots.... the first two she didn't cry at all and then the third one was just too much for her I guess because she just broke down and started crying.  The nurse saved the day though when she came in with a sucker right after and Adallyn was completely fine.  She actually did really great through the whole doctors appointment.  Whenever he would get close she would just look at me and say softly, "Momma!"  like she was worried I was going to leave her or something.  She never moved away or anything just let him do whatever he needed to do!  It was so cute and just melted my heart!  I was so grateful that we had planned to go to the temple that night for ward temple night.  I felt like it was something I really needed with all the news about Adallyn and this baby coming so soon I was starting to feel overwhelmed.  Well about an hour before we were supposed to leave Adallyn started crying because her leg hurt where she got her shots.  All I could do was rub her leg which made her just scream even more.  She would barely even walk on it, if she did she would limp.  Well because of everything I had learned that day and my pregnancy hormones I started just bawling and basically getting mad that I wasn't going to be able to go to the temple because Adallyn was crying so bad.  (It was really aweful....I don't know how Vinny was so patient with me.)  Vinny came home and amidst me freaking out told me that it was just satan trying to get to me because that is what he usually does when I want to go to the temple.  He ended up giving Adallyn a blessing and we dropped her off with the couple who was going to be babysitting with me just praying and worrying that she would be okay for them while we were gone.  The whole time we were at the temple I was just praying for comfort.  Comfort with everything that was going on with Adallyn and comfort with this baby coming.  While I was in the Celestial room while I was praying I felt an overwhelming feeling of peace and love.  I knew that no matter what was going to happen with Adallyn that everything was going to be okay and that I was loved by my Heavenly Father.  I also felt that he was the one that is in control and he never gives me more than I can handle.  With His help I could accomplish anything.  I was so grateful for this answer to my prayers.  We went and picked up the girls after we were done and they said Adallyn had done fine... in fact she had just slept the whole time we were gone pretty much.  I felt Heavenly Father's love again as he answered my prayer that Adallyn would be okay while we were gone. 

Sunday came and Adallyn started throwing up and getting a fever.  We had her doctor appointment Monday with the cardiologist at Primary Childrens and because she was sick she was not cooperative at all!  The cardiologist did get to listen to her heart and he told us that what he heard was an innocent murmur and not one that should really be worried about.  He couldn't do an ultrasound because he thought holding down a screaming kid was barbaric and since Adallyn was sick that is probably what they would have to do.  He told us to come back in 3-4 months and he would double check to make sure it was just an innocent murmur but he told us he wasn't too worried.  I was so grateful that our little sweetheart wasn't going to have to go through surgery.  I think Vinny was really relieved because everytime he would look at Adallyn he would almost cry.  (He is such a softie when it comes to his girls)  Adallyn stayed sick until about Thursday.  The poor little thing... all she wanted to do was sleep all the time!  It was so sad.  Vinny gave her a blessing and she seemed a lot better after that. 

Kaydence started getting the same sickness saturday night and ended up throwing up three days straight.  She couldn't keep anything down and has had a cough for about two weeks which would just make her throw up even more. Vinny gave her a blessing on Sunday with our home teacher and she acted like she was feeling a lot better after that but still ended up throwing up all night.  I took her to the doctor yesterday and they were worried that she was getting dehydrated so they gave me a prescription for Zofran and told me to give her fluids every 10 minutes then to come back at four and if she wasn't better then I would have to take her to the hospital to get an I.V. and chest x-ray to check for pnumonia.  Thankfully she stopped throwing up and started keeping fluids down and she even wanted to eat!! YAY! When I took her back in they said she looked great and sent me home.  I was so grateful that I didn't have to go to the hospital.  She is still not feeling good today but I think by tomorrow, hopefully, she will be better. (Finger's crossed)

Needless to say it has been crazy around here at my house.  I have not been able to think a whole lot about Cameron coming and how I won't be able to handle three.  I am still nervous but now I think I am more nervous for the going into labor part.  I am really happy that there are actually no problems with this pregnancy and that hopefully I won't have to be induced!  Even with all the sickness and crazy things I have been having to deal with I feel so blessed. The first night that Kaydence was sick Vinny was the one that got up with her everytime she threw up and would get her sprite and water (because she had to have both! :)) The whole time I was thinking how I have such an amazing husband that would do that and not get upset ever.  I was so grateful for a husband this weekend that was not only worthy to give our girls blessings but was more than happy to do it!!  I didn't want to marry someone that wasn't able to do these things for my children like my dad couldn't for us so if anything all this sickness has just made me love and appreciate my husband even more.  I know that our children have an amazing dad that will always love them unconditionally and be there for them!  Thank you Sweetheart!!!

My two girls watching a movie and eating popcorn on their "couch"  This is how it goes when they get sick!

Some funny things Kaydence has said while she is sick:

*When I asked her if she wanted to sleep on her bed she said, I don't want to becuase I don't want to get throw up on it."

*The first night that she threw up she wanted to sleep in our bed but I told her she couldn't because she is sick and she said, "But I won't throw up in your bed, I promise.  I will try!"

*We were trying to get her to brush her teeth but she didn't want to so I told Vinny I didn't want to try and fight her and risk her throwing up so he started walking away and she said, "But mom I am going to get cavities and I dont' want to get cavities!"  She let us brush her teeth after that.

*She got a sucker from the doctor's office and she was telling Adallyn that it was pink and then looked at me and said, "So I can't share ANYTHING with Adallyn mommy?"

*Kaydence and Adallyn were eating popsicles and Adallyn wanted a taste of Kaydence's and Kaydence patted her on the head and said, "I can't share with you sweetie.  I am sick, I am sorry sweetie!"

*She was throwing up into a bowl while I was holding her once and after she is done she said, "I didn't get any on your pretty dress mommy!"

*Everytime after she was done throwing up she would say, "I need toilet paper!" So she could wipe her mouth off.

Things Adallyn says all the time not just when she is sick but I have to share because it is so cute!

*Thank you Momma!

*All Done Momma!

*When she sings the song We are Young!! By FUN

*Watch Daddy!

*Where the car go?

*Daddy home?

*Kaydence ( I love how she says her name)

*Blankie or Ni-Ni (She is definitely a blanket baby)

*This isn't something she says but she insists on walking down our three flights of stairs all by herself without any help at all. (she is usually walking while I am carrying Kaydence)

All these things make me so happy to be a mommy! I love my girls!

(Even though being home for a almost two weeks has driven me a little bit crazy!)

Hide and Seek

A couple of months ago I decided it was time to finally get on a schedule!!  Now that I am on one I think to myself all the time....Why didn't I do this sooner?  It makes life SO MUCH EASIER!!  I actually make a menu every week so I know what we are having for dinner and go shopping every friday while Kaydence is at preschool for two hours.  (It goes a lot faster when I only have one kid! Of course I remember when I thought going with just one was hard! ha ha)  Every monday is my cleaning day where I clean our whole condo.  Even though I may not get the bathrooms done on cleaning day (because I dread doing them)  I try to not be too hard on myself because I know I will get it done another day.   I can't believe how much happier Vinny is with me being on a schedule.  I think this is something he has been trying to tell me to do for a really long time and it just never stuck so I think he is really relieved and very happy!  Most importantly I can't tell you how much of a difference it has made in my life and my attitude towards my motherly/wifely duties in the home.  I feel like I have accomplished some amazing thing when my house is clean and there is dinner on the table.  I was making dinner before of course but I could never make anything that I didn't normally make because that would mean I would have to go to the store at the last minute and I didn't have time for that.  I was cleaning my house before but not every week all the time.  This is really embarrassing but I have to say that even the bathrooms would go 1 or 2 months without being cleaned.  In my paper journals I have often written about being a wife and mother and all the things that come with those callings.  I have had a hard time with cleaning.  A lot of things I have had to overcome because of childhood experiences.  Cleaning when I was young wasn't because we were trying to make  a happier home, it was more about cleaning so we wouldn't get spanked and yelled at.  So when I got married of course cleaning wasn't fun or something I really cared to do.  With this schedule I have figured out how much joy I can really find in cleaning and taking care of my family in that way.  I want to clean so that my home will be a happy home!! Something I am sometimes really struggle with but if I just remember... having a happy home.... then those feelings of discouragement usually go away.  I love when my family is happy and most importantly I love when I am happy.  Having a happy mommy and wife really makes a difference with the spirit that is in the home.
So with all that said.....I have a story.  While I was putting the laundry in on monday I heard a door close.  I thought it was the door to our bedroom which the girls aren't allowed to play in because they usually just get into everything they aren't supposed too.  I went out to look and they were not in my room or anywhere else that I looked.  I started to panic thinking the worst....that someone had come and taken them.  I ran everywhere in the condo, checking the usual hiding spots only ending up to find they weren't there.  I went out on the balcony and called their names (which Kaydence usually responds too)  I ran back inside and checked every room again thinking I really must have not checked a spot where they would be hiding.  And then ran outside again this time screaming their names.  I heard in the distance Kaydence saying, "We are over here!"  I went out and they had gotten all the way down the stairs outside!  I was relieved but at the same time feeling a little overwhelmed with the fact that they could have been taken or hit by a car or they could have fallen down the stairs.  When I asked Kaydence what she was doing or thinking by going outside.  She responded..."We were hiding from you!"  I then explained to her that we don't go outside to hide from mommy and explained all the things that COULD HAVE happened and then locked the door so they couldn't get out again.  PHEW!  Thank goodness Heavenly Father is looking out for me and is easy to forgive my parenting flaws when stuff like this happens.  I am still trying to get over this happening but I know one day it will be something I laugh about so I decided to write it down. 

Went to the dealership today because they didn't finish the safety and emissions on saturday like we thought.  I was really nervous to take these two by myself but it ended up going really good!  They had a little room for kids to play in with little couches and TONS of toys.  They also had free popcorn and soda.  Which of course the girls loved!!! (and me too!)  Thank you Nissan Dealer for making our experience a good one!

Hurt.

We had  a lot of things (exciting things) going on this last weekend that it just flew by but at the same time the days seemed so LONG!  Kaydence has preschool, Which she loves going to,  every friday.  This last friday they got to go on a field trip to arctic circle.  It was so cute!  They showed them where they cook, store, and clean all the food.  They even got to make their own ice cream cones!  I think it is something Kaydence will remember forever.  They also gave her a coupon for a free ice cream cone which she just could not wait to use another day.....so we ended up going back there when daddy got home from work.  I love going to arctic circle because their playplace is more like a playground that you find at a park and kids can't get stuck in it as easy.  (So really I like going to there so I don't have to climb up into a big mess to save my child if they get stuck!)  One thing I don't like about going to playplaces is when parents just think it is a place where they don't need to watch their kids at all!!! My girls are small and usually get beat up by those kids whose parents don't really care or notice because they are so into whatever they are doing and figure their kids are doing fine.  If you can't tell it is something that really bothers me.  This friday had one of those said parents there.  Her daughter had an icecream cone in the play area where it specifically says, NO FOOD ALLOWED!!! Well her daughter must have been finished with her ice cream cone because she threw it from where she was standing.  Half of it landed on the stairs that all the kids go and the other half landed on the ground.  She then goes and sees her mom who cleans her up and is so happy that her daughter ate all of her ice cream cone. (since she wasn't paying attention and didn't notice that her daughter had thrown the ice cream and it was now all over the place.)  Her daughter then goes back to playing but not before she sees the ice cream that landed on the floor that I guess she wanted more of because she started licking the ground where it had been dropped!  Vinny and I and another mom looked at each other in complete disgust and then looked to see if the mom was watching, which of course she was not.  The other mom was so kind to inform that woman that her daughter was licking the icecream off the floor, which she responded by saying, "Oh it's okay.  It's not that big of a deal!"  We could not believe what we just heard but I guess to each thier own and I really hope that girl doesn't catch some weird disease from that gross floor she was licking.  Any way, the girls had a lot of fun playing and going down the slide!!! Saturday we had a birthday party for a neighbor to go to in the morning and then we waited around (anxiously)  to go get our new car that would be big enough to fit our whole family when baby cameron comes.  So when the time finally came we went to our good friends Matt and Tanshyle's (since that is who we were buying the car from) where the girls stayed and the men went to deal with buying of cars.  While they were gone Kaydence and Holynd decided to play with Tanshyle's razor...which of course ended up cutting Kaydence's finger. which of course gave me a screaming child with a really bloody mess!  I am so thankful I was at Tanshyle's and she was there to help me since I am really not good with blood... AT ALL!!  It took us a good 15 minutes to stop the blood from coming so we could finally put bandaids on it. And then another half hour to calm Kaydence down so she would want to play again.  We did survive though!!!

This is a few days later when she would actually let me take a picture.....and of course the bandaid had to stay on because it still hurts too bad.  (we have gone through TONS of bandaids and are now out because of this incident.)
That night we went and showed our new car to Grammy and Aunt Rachie.  While we were there Kaydence played with a Jesse doll from toy story two.  When we were ready to leave she didn't want to leave Jesse so Aunt Rachie was so nice and gave Kaydence the Jesse doll.  She LOVES her!

  She has to sleep with her and make sure she is close by during the day and even had to bring her to sunbeams!  She now goes around saying, "Howdy Cowboy, YEEHAW!"  It is so cute!  The only problem is ....Adallyn wants one so I will be buying her one this week so they don't fight over Jesse anymore. (Kaydence is pretty protective of "her" toys!) 
Sunday was great .... until Kaydence accidently closed Adallyn's pinky finger in the door. (The hinge part)  It looked aweful because her whole finger was smashed in there with the door fully closed!  Poor thing.  I am pretty sure that her nail is going to fall off. :(  She was screaming and to calm her down I thought it would be a good idea to give her a sucker..... yeah all it did was cause more problem when the sticky sucker got on her finger that was hurt.  DUH NICOLE!!! So then that just started a screaming fit again.  She would even try putting her finger in her mouth to make it feel better.  It was so sad.  I cried and cried as she would look up at me like, "help me please mommy....it hurts."  All I wanted to do was take the pain away and I couldn't no matter how much I tried to love her or distract her or pray for her it still wouldn't take the pain away at that moment so all I could do was cry with her. It was the longest hour of my life as I just held her while both of us cried. Within a couple of hourst hough she acted like nothing happened and started playing again. (Every once in awhile she would remember she got hurt and hold her finger.)  When Kaydence saw me crying because of Adallyn she started crying because she wanted mommy to be happy and she didn't like that I was sad.  It was so sweet.  Adallyn will not let me take a picture of her owie but it is already looking so much better.

 Their first bath after them both getting hurt.  Adallyn acted like it was no big deal and her finger didn't just get smashed in the door and Kaydence just held her finger the whole time saying how much it hurt.  I just love these two girls so much they make me so happy!  I am constantly being humbled by their sweet little innocent spirits!  I am so grateful to be their mommy!

She is 4!!!

My little sweetheart turned 4 on friday and I cannot believe how fast the time has gone by!!!  On her birthday I was looking at pictures of her when she was born and during her stay in the hospital and almost started crying.  She was only in the hospital for two months, but those two months seemed like years as we were waiting for her to get better so she could come home.  Now she is all grown up and already tells me what to do.  Just a little bit about our Kaydence right now.....
*She LOVES Adallyn!  She even pretends to be her mommy sometimes.  She is very protective of her, if anybody is even a little bit mean (that could even mean just looks at Adallyn the wrong way) Kaydence is right there saying, "That's my sister and you better be nice to her!" or "Don't be mean to my sister!"  Which is usually followed by Kaydence saying, "Come on Adallyn!" walking away with her arm protectively around her.  I love it so much!!!


*She LOVES baby Cameron! She has to tell everybody we meet that "Mommy has a baby in her tummy and his name is baby Cameron."  Whenever she even gets close to my stomach she will say, "I am sorry baby Cameron!"  In the morning she has to hug my belly and tell him how much she loves him.  I have a feeling that she will be just as protective with Cameron as she is with Adallyn and he will have nothing to worry about when he comes!!!


*She LOVES dancing and singing!  Her favorite song right now is, We are Young by FUN.  It is so cute to hear her sing along to the song or when she sings it without any music (which is what happens most of the time)  She will sing and dance ANYWHERE!!! It doesn't even matter where or who is watching she will just sing her heart out! 


*She LOVES princess' and dressing up in her princess dress ups!  There is not a day that goes by that she is asking me to put one of her princess dresses on.  She would wear it wherever she went if I let her.  For her Birthday she, of course wanted a princess tea party!!!  Her favorite princess right now is Rapunzel.  Usually when she has that dress on Flynn Rider is a name I hear often as she pretends he is saving her!


*She LOVES her friends.  Everyday she is wanting to play with someone, asking if I will call or text their mommy to see if we can come over.  Usually when when do go and play it is a battle just to get her to leave because she doesn't want to leave her friends, even if we have been there all day!


*She LOVES being dramatic.  She is already a little actress!  On her birthday she wanted to go to Arctic Circle and there was a little boy that was a couple years older than her following her around and you could tell that she knew.  She always has to make her actions and facial expressions very dramatic!  Especially when she is dancing and singing.  I hope I can get it on video before she grows out of it. 


*She LOVES being stubborn!  She does NOT like to go to bed and will fight it no matter how tired she is!!!  She will NOT wear pants because she says she is scared of them..... she will wear leggings though.  If there is not a clean dress in the house there is a half hour battle to get her to wear jeans. 


*She LOVES her daddy!  She doesn't like when he is gone from work for that long or when he has to work on the weekends.  He is usually the fun one who will play games with her before bed and cuddle with her!  (Daddy fell in love with her the day she was born)  She especially loves daddy/daughter dates!


*She LOVES to cuddle!  I love when she comes and sits on my lap and just lets me hold her!  I know that she won't always want me and I just enjoy the time that I get with her!


So there is just a couple things about my strong willed very loving little girl! Now on to the pictures from her birthday (or more like her birthday weekend) 

I had to start out with a few pictures of when she was in the hospital!!  It is no wonder that she recovered so quickly she is a strong willed little girl!  We love her so much!

Adallyn would get a present and give to Kaydence to open.  It was so cute!!

Kaydence was pretty adament that she make these funny faces when I took the picture!

For her birthday not only did she want dresses but she wanted a pink pig.  I had no idea what she was talking about but daddy came to the rescue and got her a piggy bank with some change.  She LOVED it and I am pretty sure that was her favorite gift!

(She also got two dresses from me and a new princess dress up... CINDERELLA)

She wanted a princess cake for her birthday but I really didn't want to spend 30 dollars on a princess cake so I made this one instead that she ended up loving just as much!

My cute little Adallyn loved the cake too of course!

Thanks to Grammy this whole birthday came together really great!!! It included peanut butter and jelly and ham and cheese sandwiches, salad on a stick, fruit on a stick and LOTS of treats!

All of her friends that came...Holynd, Alexia, Chloe and Adi.

 

Her wonderful birthday cake that grammy spent hours making!  You can't tell from this picture but it was pretty much amazing.  So amazing that Kadence didn't even want to eat it!

Kaydence being the leader that she is wanted everybody to put their hands in and do a little cheer. Don't know where she got that from!

Cute hats that they decorated with flowers!

And of course they had to dance!

All the princess' beating up on daddy!

Blowing bubbles!!!!

It was a pretty busy weekend and wore me right out but it was definitely worth it! On her birthday she went to preschool, arctic circle, and swimming! She was definitely spoiled by all her friends and grammy who gave her 5 new dresses so that mommy doesn't have to do laundry everyday to keep up with all the days she wants a dress. Thank.You.Grammy!  Kaydence, we love you and we can't believe how big you are getting everyday!!!  We couldn't imagine life without you, you definitely make it more complete! Thank you for choosing to come to our family!

Family pics

I know, I know this is my third post tonight but I have to hurry and do it while I have the internet handy. Plus, Vinny has been wondering why I haven't put our AMAZINGLY AWESOME family pictures on the blog so here you go.....

 I personally LOVE them and I think I have the cutest kids EVER!!!(but I may be a little biased) 

BIG SISTER'S!

So ovbiously it's not the best picture but it's the only one we had with them wearing both of their shirts.  We were so excited to finally be telling people that we are having a third! (well at least I was since I am getting more and more sick. ugh.)  I loved that it took people a little bit of time to figure out instead of announcing it. It was so fun and a great Christmas present for everybody. It makes me nervous that by this time next year I will have three to take care of but at the same time I can't help but feel so blessed. I love both of my little girls so much and I do not know what I would do without them in my life.  I can't wait to see this little one and welcome them into our crazy little family!