5 years

This post is about a month late but I can't skip over the fact that Vincen and I have been married for 5 years!!! Our anniversary was on May 30th but we celebrated the weekend before and since I don't carry anything around when I am with him I didn't have a camera to take any pictures.  HELLO NICOLE!!! At least we will have a written record of what we did.  I first wanted to take a little walk down memory lane and talk about our last 5 years together!!!

I met Vincen at Ken Garff Porsche, Audi, Volkswagen in Orem.  He was a mechanic and I was a receptionist.  We were both dating other people at the time but mine was about to go on a mission so we had "broken up" so he could prepare and Vincen always told me how he was "done" with his girlfriend!  (Which he says he would say just to see my face light up! ....I tried to deny it for awhile but it is most likely true!  What can I say I was smitten with this confident, outgoing not to mention good looking guy!) 

A co-worker finally told Vincen that if he was "done" with his girlfriend like he said he was then he should take me out to dinner that night.  We went to Mimi's Cafe and after we were done I told him that I hoped his girlfriend wouldn't be mad because I wasn't the kind of person that dated someone that had a girlfriend and he said, "I am done with her! But this, this could work!"  And I said, "What could work?"  And he said "Me and You!"  (How did he know?) 

After dating for a month we pretty much knew that we were going to get married!  I remember we had met at a park and ride on christmas eve and for some reason we were both just so happy, giggling like little children because we were so in love!  I think that is the exact time we both knew!  We dated for 6 months and got married May 30th, 2007 in the Mt. Timpanogos Temple.  One of the happiest days of my life!

Our plan after we got married was to wait two years before even thinking about having kids.  YEAH.....it was more like two months later we found out we were pregnant with Kaydence.  I remember when I told Vincen that I was pregnant he was upset saying over and over, "I can't be a dad!"  It took him about two minutes for his anger to turn into joy and we knelt down right then and said a prayer. 

At five months we found out we were having a girl and that she would have gastroschesis.  It was a hard thing to hear about a little baby but it made us grow closer together through the whole pregnancy and after she was born. She was born on April 20,2010.  She stayed two months in primary childrens. (Seemed a lot longer at the time.)  I would go up everyday and Vinny would usually come up once during the week after work and then we spent all weekend there.

Even though it was really hard to not be able to go home with our baby and see her in the hospital with all those things hooked up to her knowing she was in pain but there was nothing we could do about it....it definitely made me and Vincen's relationship stronger.  Our first anniversary was spent partly at the hospital.

By the time our second anniversary came around we knew that we wanted to start trying to have another one.  Of course Heavenly Father had a different plan.  It took us 8 months to get pregnant with little Adallyn.  I think Kaydence just needed a little bit more alone time with mommy and daddy!  Vincen left his job at Ken Garff to work with a fellow employee that started up his own business.  We also decided that our house was too much of a financial burden and that we needed to do a short sale since we had bought right before the market crashed.  That was definitely a hard time for the both of us.  I think it was more hard for Vincen because he felt like he had failed at being the provider.  I tried to reassure him that it didn't matter where we were as long as we had each other.

Vincen was getting sick of working with his partner Wes and was trying to figure out what to do on our third anniversary.  He was getting no benefits from working with him at all and it was so frustrating.  A lot of days he would just sit around and do nothing.  Because we weren't making any house payment we were able to pay off our cars and little credit card debt that we had.  Two months before Adallyn was born we found out the bank wouldn't do a short sale and so we had to foreclose and be out in two weeks.  During those two weeks Vincen got fired from his job.  They figured out that they could pay someone a lot less than they were paying him to do the same thing.  Vincen decided that he wanted to start his own business.  It was more of a faith building experience for me as I had to trust and support my husbands decision and know that everything would be okay.  It took us about two months to find a place and actually get it going.  For some reason during the time we were looking all these people started calling Vincen to work on their cars.  He would tell them that he didn't have a shop and it would just be at his parents house and everybody was more than okay with that.  That is how we survived for the next two months.  We definitely felt blessed.

 I found out I had low amniotic fluid when I was 30 weeks with Adallyn.  I had to go in weekly for an NST to make sure she was okay.  At my 37 week appointment my fluid was at a 2 and so they told me I was going to have a babay that day!  I was so devastated because I hadn't put the bag that I had packed in the car and I was really hoping to go on my own.  I called Vincen and for some reason he decided to put the bag in the car that morning.  :) Adallyn was born on October 22,2010 and we were so excited to have her join our family!

Because Vincen lost his job and had just started his own business we couldn't afford to pay for all the hospital bills from Adallyn.  We applied for financial aid thinking we wouldn't get it since it was his choice to start his own business but they ended up paying 100 percent of the doctor bills!  I cried. (Blessings from paying our tithing)

Our Fourth Anniversary was spent still trying to build up our business.  (German Auto Specialists)  We were so excited that it was doing so well!  That year we started trying for another one when Adallyn was a year old thinking it would take us a long time. (and I just didn't want to go through the heartache each month when the test came back negative)  We ended up getting pregnant within a month and found out we were having a baby boy!  He should be coming any time and we are so grateful that there are no problems with this pregnancy so far!!!

We took the girls to Vincen's parents for our fifth anniversary.  Went to see The Avengers and  just spent the night at home....slept in (which is only lik 8:30 for us)  Went to kneaders for breakfast and then headed up to the Salt Lake Temple to do a live endowment.  I had never done one before and it was a really amazing experience.  We then went to City Creek where we both felt out of place since all the stores were way out of our price range.  We also decided that we both don't like shopping for that long.  We went to Tucanos and then went back to pick up the girls!  It was perfect!!!

I just want to say a few words about being married to Vincen.  Growing up my dad was never really there for us.  He was a truck driver so we never really got to see him.  When he was home he basically just slept or he was upset with something or someone.  He was physically and verbally abusive.  (More Verbal)  Even though he had gone on a mission he didn't have anything to do with the church.  He drank and smoked and just didn't care about the way he was living.  His parenting philosophy was, "Do as I say and not as I do."  I felt like nothing I ever did was good enough for him.  All of these things I obviously had a really hard time with and they are things I have had to personally overcome.  One of the biggest things for me was I wasn't sealed to anyone.  I struggled with this the whole time I was in highschool.  It was something I would pray and cry about often.  One time after I prayed about it I just had this overwhelming feeling of peace come over me and I knew what I needed to do.  I knew I needed to marry someone who wasn't going to be anything like my dad.  I needed to get married to someone who would be worthy to enter the temple with me so that my kids would never have to worry about being sealed to anyone.  I needed to marry someone that was a worthy priesthood holder and would teach our kids the gospel .  Someone I could be with forever!!  Marrying someone that had all of these qualities was top priority for me and I wasn't going to settle for anything less.  Vincen has all of these qualities and more!  I am so grateful we got married in the temple.  I am so grateful that I can ask him to give my girls a blessing and he is ready and worthy to do it!  He loves providing for our family and making sure we are taken care of!  He loves our little girls so much!  Whenever he comes home Kaydence  says excitedly, "My Prince is home!!!"  I love that they already know what an amazing daddy they have!  He treats me like a queen!  I honestly could not have found someone better than him! 

I love you Vincen Gillespie!!  It has been an amazing five years and I can't wait to see what the next five years brings us!!!

Blessings

I cannot believe that I am already 35 weeks!  This pregnancy has gone by so fast.  I remember in the beginning wishing I would be closer to my due date and now I really don't know if I am ready for another baby in a month.  I AM so excited to see little Cameron and have him join our family but I am really nervous to be having three.  I think deep down I know that I will be fine even though there will be days that will be hard.  I guess I was thinking about it so much that Heavnely Father decided I needed a distraction.  I took Adallyn in for her 18 month check up two weeks ago and the cute little thing is only 18.6 pounds. (which by the way is bigger than Kaydence was at this age)  I always knew that we would have little kids because me and vinny aren't really giants but the doctor seemed to be concerned.  She is now on a high fat diet. (Everything with extra butter and lots of icecream)  He also listened to her heart and then told me he heard that she had a heart murmur.  Usually he isn't that concerned with it but because her weight was so small he said that I needed to see a cardiologist.  If she did have this heart murmur then she would have to have surgery.  He also took her blood pressure in both arms.  One side was something like 108 and the other side was 88 and he said that was usually a sign of this particular heart murmur.  He made it seem like she was for sure going to need surgery.  She also got her shots.... the first two she didn't cry at all and then the third one was just too much for her I guess because she just broke down and started crying.  The nurse saved the day though when she came in with a sucker right after and Adallyn was completely fine.  She actually did really great through the whole doctors appointment.  Whenever he would get close she would just look at me and say softly, "Momma!"  like she was worried I was going to leave her or something.  She never moved away or anything just let him do whatever he needed to do!  It was so cute and just melted my heart!  I was so grateful that we had planned to go to the temple that night for ward temple night.  I felt like it was something I really needed with all the news about Adallyn and this baby coming so soon I was starting to feel overwhelmed.  Well about an hour before we were supposed to leave Adallyn started crying because her leg hurt where she got her shots.  All I could do was rub her leg which made her just scream even more.  She would barely even walk on it, if she did she would limp.  Well because of everything I had learned that day and my pregnancy hormones I started just bawling and basically getting mad that I wasn't going to be able to go to the temple because Adallyn was crying so bad.  (It was really aweful....I don't know how Vinny was so patient with me.)  Vinny came home and amidst me freaking out told me that it was just satan trying to get to me because that is what he usually does when I want to go to the temple.  He ended up giving Adallyn a blessing and we dropped her off with the couple who was going to be babysitting with me just praying and worrying that she would be okay for them while we were gone.  The whole time we were at the temple I was just praying for comfort.  Comfort with everything that was going on with Adallyn and comfort with this baby coming.  While I was in the Celestial room while I was praying I felt an overwhelming feeling of peace and love.  I knew that no matter what was going to happen with Adallyn that everything was going to be okay and that I was loved by my Heavenly Father.  I also felt that he was the one that is in control and he never gives me more than I can handle.  With His help I could accomplish anything.  I was so grateful for this answer to my prayers.  We went and picked up the girls after we were done and they said Adallyn had done fine... in fact she had just slept the whole time we were gone pretty much.  I felt Heavenly Father's love again as he answered my prayer that Adallyn would be okay while we were gone. 

Sunday came and Adallyn started throwing up and getting a fever.  We had her doctor appointment Monday with the cardiologist at Primary Childrens and because she was sick she was not cooperative at all!  The cardiologist did get to listen to her heart and he told us that what he heard was an innocent murmur and not one that should really be worried about.  He couldn't do an ultrasound because he thought holding down a screaming kid was barbaric and since Adallyn was sick that is probably what they would have to do.  He told us to come back in 3-4 months and he would double check to make sure it was just an innocent murmur but he told us he wasn't too worried.  I was so grateful that our little sweetheart wasn't going to have to go through surgery.  I think Vinny was really relieved because everytime he would look at Adallyn he would almost cry.  (He is such a softie when it comes to his girls)  Adallyn stayed sick until about Thursday.  The poor little thing... all she wanted to do was sleep all the time!  It was so sad.  Vinny gave her a blessing and she seemed a lot better after that. 

Kaydence started getting the same sickness saturday night and ended up throwing up three days straight.  She couldn't keep anything down and has had a cough for about two weeks which would just make her throw up even more. Vinny gave her a blessing on Sunday with our home teacher and she acted like she was feeling a lot better after that but still ended up throwing up all night.  I took her to the doctor yesterday and they were worried that she was getting dehydrated so they gave me a prescription for Zofran and told me to give her fluids every 10 minutes then to come back at four and if she wasn't better then I would have to take her to the hospital to get an I.V. and chest x-ray to check for pnumonia.  Thankfully she stopped throwing up and started keeping fluids down and she even wanted to eat!! YAY! When I took her back in they said she looked great and sent me home.  I was so grateful that I didn't have to go to the hospital.  She is still not feeling good today but I think by tomorrow, hopefully, she will be better. (Finger's crossed)

Needless to say it has been crazy around here at my house.  I have not been able to think a whole lot about Cameron coming and how I won't be able to handle three.  I am still nervous but now I think I am more nervous for the going into labor part.  I am really happy that there are actually no problems with this pregnancy and that hopefully I won't have to be induced!  Even with all the sickness and crazy things I have been having to deal with I feel so blessed. The first night that Kaydence was sick Vinny was the one that got up with her everytime she threw up and would get her sprite and water (because she had to have both! :)) The whole time I was thinking how I have such an amazing husband that would do that and not get upset ever.  I was so grateful for a husband this weekend that was not only worthy to give our girls blessings but was more than happy to do it!!  I didn't want to marry someone that wasn't able to do these things for my children like my dad couldn't for us so if anything all this sickness has just made me love and appreciate my husband even more.  I know that our children have an amazing dad that will always love them unconditionally and be there for them!  Thank you Sweetheart!!!

My two girls watching a movie and eating popcorn on their "couch"  This is how it goes when they get sick!

Some funny things Kaydence has said while she is sick:

*When I asked her if she wanted to sleep on her bed she said, I don't want to becuase I don't want to get throw up on it."

*The first night that she threw up she wanted to sleep in our bed but I told her she couldn't because she is sick and she said, "But I won't throw up in your bed, I promise.  I will try!"

*We were trying to get her to brush her teeth but she didn't want to so I told Vinny I didn't want to try and fight her and risk her throwing up so he started walking away and she said, "But mom I am going to get cavities and I dont' want to get cavities!"  She let us brush her teeth after that.

*She got a sucker from the doctor's office and she was telling Adallyn that it was pink and then looked at me and said, "So I can't share ANYTHING with Adallyn mommy?"

*Kaydence and Adallyn were eating popsicles and Adallyn wanted a taste of Kaydence's and Kaydence patted her on the head and said, "I can't share with you sweetie.  I am sick, I am sorry sweetie!"

*She was throwing up into a bowl while I was holding her once and after she is done she said, "I didn't get any on your pretty dress mommy!"

*Everytime after she was done throwing up she would say, "I need toilet paper!" So she could wipe her mouth off.

Things Adallyn says all the time not just when she is sick but I have to share because it is so cute!

*Thank you Momma!

*All Done Momma!

*When she sings the song We are Young!! By FUN

*Watch Daddy!

*Where the car go?

*Daddy home?

*Kaydence ( I love how she says her name)

*Blankie or Ni-Ni (She is definitely a blanket baby)

*This isn't something she says but she insists on walking down our three flights of stairs all by herself without any help at all. (she is usually walking while I am carrying Kaydence)

All these things make me so happy to be a mommy! I love my girls!

(Even though being home for a almost two weeks has driven me a little bit crazy!)