Hide and Seek

A couple of months ago I decided it was time to finally get on a schedule!!  Now that I am on one I think to myself all the time....Why didn't I do this sooner?  It makes life SO MUCH EASIER!!  I actually make a menu every week so I know what we are having for dinner and go shopping every friday while Kaydence is at preschool for two hours.  (It goes a lot faster when I only have one kid! Of course I remember when I thought going with just one was hard! ha ha)  Every monday is my cleaning day where I clean our whole condo.  Even though I may not get the bathrooms done on cleaning day (because I dread doing them)  I try to not be too hard on myself because I know I will get it done another day.   I can't believe how much happier Vinny is with me being on a schedule.  I think this is something he has been trying to tell me to do for a really long time and it just never stuck so I think he is really relieved and very happy!  Most importantly I can't tell you how much of a difference it has made in my life and my attitude towards my motherly/wifely duties in the home.  I feel like I have accomplished some amazing thing when my house is clean and there is dinner on the table.  I was making dinner before of course but I could never make anything that I didn't normally make because that would mean I would have to go to the store at the last minute and I didn't have time for that.  I was cleaning my house before but not every week all the time.  This is really embarrassing but I have to say that even the bathrooms would go 1 or 2 months without being cleaned.  In my paper journals I have often written about being a wife and mother and all the things that come with those callings.  I have had a hard time with cleaning.  A lot of things I have had to overcome because of childhood experiences.  Cleaning when I was young wasn't because we were trying to make  a happier home, it was more about cleaning so we wouldn't get spanked and yelled at.  So when I got married of course cleaning wasn't fun or something I really cared to do.  With this schedule I have figured out how much joy I can really find in cleaning and taking care of my family in that way.  I want to clean so that my home will be a happy home!! Something I am sometimes really struggle with but if I just remember... having a happy home.... then those feelings of discouragement usually go away.  I love when my family is happy and most importantly I love when I am happy.  Having a happy mommy and wife really makes a difference with the spirit that is in the home.
So with all that said.....I have a story.  While I was putting the laundry in on monday I heard a door close.  I thought it was the door to our bedroom which the girls aren't allowed to play in because they usually just get into everything they aren't supposed too.  I went out to look and they were not in my room or anywhere else that I looked.  I started to panic thinking the worst....that someone had come and taken them.  I ran everywhere in the condo, checking the usual hiding spots only ending up to find they weren't there.  I went out on the balcony and called their names (which Kaydence usually responds too)  I ran back inside and checked every room again thinking I really must have not checked a spot where they would be hiding.  And then ran outside again this time screaming their names.  I heard in the distance Kaydence saying, "We are over here!"  I went out and they had gotten all the way down the stairs outside!  I was relieved but at the same time feeling a little overwhelmed with the fact that they could have been taken or hit by a car or they could have fallen down the stairs.  When I asked Kaydence what she was doing or thinking by going outside.  She responded..."We were hiding from you!"  I then explained to her that we don't go outside to hide from mommy and explained all the things that COULD HAVE happened and then locked the door so they couldn't get out again.  PHEW!  Thank goodness Heavenly Father is looking out for me and is easy to forgive my parenting flaws when stuff like this happens.  I am still trying to get over this happening but I know one day it will be something I laugh about so I decided to write it down. 

Went to the dealership today because they didn't finish the safety and emissions on saturday like we thought.  I was really nervous to take these two by myself but it ended up going really good!  They had a little room for kids to play in with little couches and TONS of toys.  They also had free popcorn and soda.  Which of course the girls loved!!! (and me too!)  Thank you Nissan Dealer for making our experience a good one!